$$$ money money money

September 26, 2010- rainy day

Waking up late on a Sunday morning is a very good present for me as I am not able to wake up late on other days. My day today starts with money and I guess I will end my day also about money. I was awaken by daddy's call saying that he had bank in some money into my bank account. Getting this type of call, I certainly know what to do next. I have been doing all the bank transactions many times, house loan and also credit card loan. See, I told you it's about money. It's just that I did not have my part on the money. 

Later in the afternoon, I slept back again at the living room due to the cold weather out there and I am still half awake actually. So, I decided to snooze off again until Zi's call which force me to be awake. Asking whether I am coming to uni or not. Sigh. Travelling all the way to uni from puchong is a hassle for me. And at this moment, Zi came to look for me in Msn. Sigh Sigh. Got to reply him. 

I had chee cheong fun for my brunch at 2.30pm. Then get prepared to help mum to dye her grey hair. By the time I am done with that, it's already 4.30pm and it's raining cats and dogs out there. Watching rain falls doesn't calm me. But it created chaos in my heart and the desperate need for instant cash. Every problem which involve cash came floating in my mind. I am not assured by my sister whether I will driving or moving out. I guess I will be shifting out again.

I do hope that I can drive to uni, it saves me from many troubles and time for travelling by bus. But then, it also cost me alot for the maintenance and tyre and petrol and toll. Moving out saves me time also but I got to depend on my own for meals and laundry. I wont be having good food during the weekdays. Most probably, entertainment and food cost me a bomb for sure. 

After all the dramas and considerations, I decided to shift out without waiting for the answer because I know that sis won't be letting go her car. Afterall, it is her car and I have no rights to make her borrow her car to me. She will for sure feel left out without a proper accommodation of her own and it feels like left with only one leg. 

So, I am shifting out real soon after I got my room done. Deposits and room rental and internet bill cost me a bomb too. But what I can do. I need to work for more cash and the loan just not enough for me. I barely have extra for emergency, shopping nor entertainment like movies etc. Everything will goes to my rental soon and my meals. I guess I spent too much earlier for my driving classes and also a shoe cabinet for the house which I am not responsible for it. 

I do admit that I tend to spend too much on luxury food (like cafe food, cakes and top ups instead of mamak food and canteen food which can bring the same effect of making me full but with a higher price). I really do not know what to do now. Mum said I can request for more pocket money from daddy. It's easy to say but hard to be done. Daddy is old and I really do not want to burden him anymore with all my expenses.

Who doesn't want to go for holiday just like other coursemates? Sometimes I was wondering, where the hell they got the money from. Why isn't me left with money? I can only see them enjoy with envy-ness in me. But no one know about that. 

Sister's wedding is another money problem. I do not where to tell from and how to start it because I don't think I can help much. I, myself have problems and I doubt I can solve it by my own. God, please show me a way so that I can get out from this.

I guess I am going for job hunting tomorrow. Pray that I can get it. *fingers crossed*