$$$ money money money

September 26, 2010- rainy day

Waking up late on a Sunday morning is a very good present for me as I am not able to wake up late on other days. My day today starts with money and I guess I will end my day also about money. I was awaken by daddy's call saying that he had bank in some money into my bank account. Getting this type of call, I certainly know what to do next. I have been doing all the bank transactions many times, house loan and also credit card loan. See, I told you it's about money. It's just that I did not have my part on the money. 

Later in the afternoon, I slept back again at the living room due to the cold weather out there and I am still half awake actually. So, I decided to snooze off again until Zi's call which force me to be awake. Asking whether I am coming to uni or not. Sigh. Travelling all the way to uni from puchong is a hassle for me. And at this moment, Zi came to look for me in Msn. Sigh Sigh. Got to reply him. 

I had chee cheong fun for my brunch at 2.30pm. Then get prepared to help mum to dye her grey hair. By the time I am done with that, it's already 4.30pm and it's raining cats and dogs out there. Watching rain falls doesn't calm me. But it created chaos in my heart and the desperate need for instant cash. Every problem which involve cash came floating in my mind. I am not assured by my sister whether I will driving or moving out. I guess I will be shifting out again.

I do hope that I can drive to uni, it saves me from many troubles and time for travelling by bus. But then, it also cost me alot for the maintenance and tyre and petrol and toll. Moving out saves me time also but I got to depend on my own for meals and laundry. I wont be having good food during the weekdays. Most probably, entertainment and food cost me a bomb for sure. 

After all the dramas and considerations, I decided to shift out without waiting for the answer because I know that sis won't be letting go her car. Afterall, it is her car and I have no rights to make her borrow her car to me. She will for sure feel left out without a proper accommodation of her own and it feels like left with only one leg. 

So, I am shifting out real soon after I got my room done. Deposits and room rental and internet bill cost me a bomb too. But what I can do. I need to work for more cash and the loan just not enough for me. I barely have extra for emergency, shopping nor entertainment like movies etc. Everything will goes to my rental soon and my meals. I guess I spent too much earlier for my driving classes and also a shoe cabinet for the house which I am not responsible for it. 

I do admit that I tend to spend too much on luxury food (like cafe food, cakes and top ups instead of mamak food and canteen food which can bring the same effect of making me full but with a higher price). I really do not know what to do now. Mum said I can request for more pocket money from daddy. It's easy to say but hard to be done. Daddy is old and I really do not want to burden him anymore with all my expenses.

Who doesn't want to go for holiday just like other coursemates? Sometimes I was wondering, where the hell they got the money from. Why isn't me left with money? I can only see them enjoy with envy-ness in me. But no one know about that. 

Sister's wedding is another money problem. I do not where to tell from and how to start it because I don't think I can help much. I, myself have problems and I doubt I can solve it by my own. God, please show me a way so that I can get out from this.

I guess I am going for job hunting tomorrow. Pray that I can get it. *fingers crossed*

I hate myself for being so hot tempered.I hate myself for being a lazy person. I do not know why I am like this.Emotional Intelligence is very low. Why can't I lend my stuff?

Another boring day

Somehow, I felt that I am not productive enough today. I had done nothing BIG the whole day other lazing around and woke up at noon??Gosh..Smack me please. Through Facebook itself, I got to see many friends who really study and also who don't. Looks like I am the person who belongs to second group. ..Ishhh. Well, I did read through my notes la but I did not follow according to the exam arrangement like how I used to do. I used to be so organized last time and now no longer in my cell. What's wrong with me??

Some of my friends really studied alot and I really feel bad and shameful about myself who has no progress at all. Somehow, they boosts me a lil' to study but I do not know where to start with. I got so distracted with other stuff that I can't fully concentrate on studies. Blame myself for all this. I played too much, I guess.

Rachel said daddy might be coming back on Thursday or Friday. Hooray~ Yes, daddy is coming back but at the same time, I might not be able to spend time with him. He is going to have raya leave soon after the whole month of not getting any day off and if daddy is around, will daddy let me go out? I doubt that. But I really want to spend more time with him at least a day will do and at the same time dad won't think so much about it?How? If I can't accompany him, will he be angry with me? I'm in dilemma. What should I tell him? Why can't daddy comes back like what he said earlier which is on the 17th?Sigh..

I guess I should put all these down and focus on my notes first. Let's see what happens later.

Tuesday not Wednesday

Another day of my study week.Today is STILL Tuesday okay??though it's 12.18am now. I still considered it as Tuesday, for few reasons:  I just can't accept the fact that sudah Wednesday, I haven't sleep yet and I don't want Wed to come so early. *slaps slaps* Ohh..okay, I'm awake now. 

Raya is just around the corner.yeah..just the corner right beside you.*peek-a-boo*(very lame). I know it's very lame. I'm super duper boring okay??So smart of UTAR giving us holidays for 2 reasons.Get to kill 2 birds with one stone huh?Raya+Study week..very brilliant.=_='''...Give me my holidays will ya??

I woke up around ten plus plus, I guess.Can't remember la..Who gives a damn of it right? Nahhh...no one cares EXCEPT for me though. Too much of C-side in me.Ruth and I are the same type of people.We have the same personality!!kakakakkakaka.The worse part is we are PROCRASTINATORS..LOL..Hell no ok?

Got myself up from the bed then head down to had my breakfast, nasi lemak that mum dapao-ed for me. Thanks mum!xoxo..Helped mum a lil'bit with the house chores, yeah, I knew just a lil' tak banyak pun.Then put my ass on the chair and start reading on my screenplay notes. The notes are awesome u know?It makes me feel sleepy so soon after I started to read (er, actually is go through them) for like FEW freaking pages?? Sigh..very bad attitude that I showed.

Now I kind of reading through week 11 notes.Pretty fast huh?But I don't remember anything about it.Shitty right??FML. Guess what?I fought with Lorraine just now. She wants to borrow my computer and so called wanted to research on her products. I don't allow her cox I already so semangat wanted to start studying at my place here with sufficient lighting, she pulak come to kacau me. Apa tak marahnye? Then she start la bising bising.Mengada punye budak.

Hello??She did not borrowed me her lappie last time also ok? So, why I can't I say I disallowed her? Isn't it fair? She made me went somewhere else which do not have proper lighting and no proper table. Benci I tangok muka dia sekarang.Eff you, young woman. This is my computer ok?Argghhhh....

For now, I'm waiting for 2 persons. 1. Mr John 2. Miss Ruth aka ROckstAr. The dude tengah makan dinner now with our friend some where near, haven't home yet to chat with me. By the time he's home, I'm not sure wether he got the energy and time to chat with me cox he already super duper tired after work. Then, Miss RockStAr ni pulak, don't know where she MIA. She isn't online all the time like she used to be.*makes me wonder why* I guess she is till worrying with her exam status, that's why she is abit emo.*hugs*

Don't worry so much miss ROCKSTAR, everything will be ok. Anyhow, it's their mistakes right?Focus on revision for now and let's see what will happen next. Not having the same class with me?I got idea la. Since its their mistakes for not giving you the chances to register at the correct time, then you bising la kat they all. Make them put you in the same class with me. ^^ Give reasons you stay very far away and has to travel so much for the classes. Ask them give you early classes which are T1 and T10. jajajjajjaa..On??Otherwise, make arrangements with the tutors. I'm so smart right?hehehehe..

I misses both of you badly. Why la never reply me?T_T Sigh...

Ini ROckStar Babe ku..

 

XOXO...woots~~~

Looks like I got to continue reading through my notes. Where is my study mood?? *please don't drag me to the notes...NNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooo..................*ZZZZzzzZZZzZZZ*

Updates people!

I know I did not blog for quite some time now.I have been very busy lately when Year 2 Sem 1 started. Piles of assignments that I have to complete it. I wanted to blog every single thing that happened to me, but the enthusiasm to blog has fade away by the time I reached home every evening after class. Travelling daily to uni is very tough and tired. Bloody jams and all the time that I wasted on the darn bus,I can always make use of it to do better stuff IF I can escape from taking buses home.

Anyways, updates updates about my life! In a week more, I will be having my final exam for this semester.5 subjects to gun down and there comes my holidays of 3 weeks.Woohoo~~ I know its bloody 3 weeks only but at least it's better than nothing, right? Assignments are all over for this semester, I am praying hard that I can get good marks for it. Some assignment marks have released, some remain unknown and I feel very curious about it. Wether I score it or the other way round.

Today is the day to register our  subjects and also classes for the coming semester. I woke up about 8.45am, texted and called Ruth but no reply until 12.30pm. She must be very tired I guess. However, she faces some problems while trying to register hers. Pity her. She has problems after another attacking her. Hope she can get rid of it very soon.