Me, Myself and I

I do not know how to start my story. I know it's been sometime since I last scribbled on the blog. I have too much things to think and consider about. Probably it's just me who think too much and only just think about it and not how to solve things up. Well, apart from all the endless assignments which I am having right now I do have other relationship matters to think about. I am having a persuasive speeh this coming Wednesday yet I have not prepare anything for it yet. I am  suppose to checked my to-do list by tonight but I decided to spare some time for myself to blog because I think I should pour things out here rather than just sharing things around with my besties.

So, first and foremost, I finally got my Samsung Galaxy Note from John. Yay! It's about 2 weeks old now. It's white in colour with a red pouch. I'll try to upload some pictures when I am really free. Secondly, I requested for a temporary break with John after 7 years of relationship. I know you will definitely ask me why and why after 7 years. I guess I started the relationship wayyyy tooo early and I think differently back then. I guess I am too naive too believe that having him is like having the world. All I need is him to be with me and everything will be just fine. Call me naive then. He did asked me about the same thing few years back but I rejected him and said I could not do it. So we didn't. And after I asked him for it, he told me that he could sense this coming one day, it's just that he do not know when. So the question came on last Friday.

At first, he was in a bad mood. Things just changed drastically and the night itself, he changed his relationship status and posted up a new post on his wall. Of course, I was a lil' intimidated with his move and I was disturbed by it because we decided to officially start after our 7th anniversary. And how could he just changed like that? I decided to call him up and just to clear things off because I do not want him to be emotional and sad.

Smartly enough he could guessed my main objective of the temporary breakup. And of course I do have others but I just did not tell him so much about it. One of it is because I really want both of us to upgrade ourselves and do what we always wanted to do without putting each other as priority. He might not put me as priority in career wise but I guess it happens on me. So I think it applies to me more. Another thing is about me as well. I need to find out do I really into him or just plain too used to it. I know this might be very cruel to him because we've been 7 years together and suddenly I thought about that.

I guess it's a right choice to take this move. To be a wiser me and really consider what I enjoy and like and all about myself. I hope I can do it. To adapt to this sudden change I need more time to put things aside and only care about myself. It's time to be me, myself and I.