Wednesday, January 4, 2012

A lazy day

Oh no, Oh shit OMG!
I did nothing benificial today!!
Except for driving the Highness and meet up with my sis
And the rest is left with nap, and sync-ing the ipod shufffle
What a great day to end...
I'm such a lazy pig
Call me a lazy pig please
I still want to go for shopping but no money yet
How to do shopping like that?
How?how?How?
Hopefully I will be hardworking tomorrow to clean my working table 
and do some minor spring cleaning since CNY is approaching
Speaking about CNY
Where to head during the holidays?
Dad said might be heading back to Kampar for one day
One day only??
I don't want my CNY to be one day only...
Tell me what to do
Will I be able to go on a trip with boyfie?
Let's pray...

Hard time

I just got back from my yum char session with boyfie and kit. As usual, they will be talking about car-related stuff but this time is a lil' different than usual. They are talking about Bill Gates and whatever possessions that he has. What the fuck are you trying to figure out how much he would spend in one day and trying to calculate how much one day a person can burn his money?Does that really matters to you? If it is, then go ahead with it and figure out. Waste more time on it then. Why don't you use the time to think and figure out how much should you earn in a year?Isn't that more beneficial?

All these made me think back, instead of figuring out people's matter, can you actually fulfill my wishes and your promises? I do not want to state what promises you made and it clearly shows that you are not fulfilling it yet. Even it is after years promises had been made. Renewals have been done several times and the foolish me accept it and thought you would really able to surprise me and looks like again I am being disappointed. 

I may not need you to get me something big or expensive. Would a short trip with me really that time consuming?And everytime I made a request to have a short trip, it's either you would say you can't take long holidays or you are out of budget. I'm seriously sick of all those reasons. Can you give me better reasons in the future?

There are several times before that I am really not satisfied with you and everytime I try to comfort myself by thinking on your shoes. You are great, man. You never fail to make me cry everytime I think about what you had done for me throughout these years. It's very sad to tell my love story out. 

I do not blame you if you said you can't have trip with me because I'm still schooling but I am already grown up  now, I'm in the uni and you are working. What is it so hard to go for a trip? Out of budget all the time? Can't take holidays? The company won't be able to function without you? Tell me about it.

You promised me to get me a smartphone. I did not request for it. When you popped the question up, I am really happy that you offered me. I did felt happy. You postpone it for the first time, and I believe you that you will be able to make it the next time. Is alright for me at that time until you renewed you promise that God knows how many times of it and yet promise remains as a promise. I felt very disappointed until the extend of forgetting about the promise you made and go on with my life. And then you ignite it back and gave me a new choice between two models. And again, I am fucking happy and I really believe that my dream will come true soon. At first, I really thought I do not want to burden you with the amount and you tell me it is fine because you already promised earlier and you have allocated money for it. It's new year already and I thought my dream of having a smartphone become reality until the day I texted you my choice of phone. You replied you are out of budget again. Then what the fuck are you promising me earlier? Is that how you treat me? Playing roller-coaster is it?Was is it fun to you?

I do not expect returns from you but truly deeply thinking back how did we celebrated our anniversaries together?Birthdays?Occasions? I really did not expect much from you but at least, a fucking at least, wishes me sincerely and show me that you really care and love me.A card at least or perhaps spend more quality time with me!!Instead of just meet up and at most movie and dinner and then we are back home. What the fuck!!! I need more than that. All that are plain stupid alright? I am not saying that you are not good but would it harm you if you show me more love and care so that I can feel that I am being appreciated? Love and care don't need money to buy, all you got to do is show me with your sincere heart. I am just another simple girl who loves to be pampered and showered with love and gifts.

You have been working for quite some time and I did not interupt your job problems because I know you can handle them. You mentioned about how you don't like your job and what the fuck are you still there for?And years of working you don't have budget for short trip?And what the fuck are you being a hero for purchasing the Regza in your fucking room? As if you are fucking free at night and would stay home to watch it. 

I think on your shoes all the time and would you think for me for once??

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

My lil' wish list

While waiting boyfie to fetch me, I decided to blog a lil'. 
I had a sudden crave to go for movies and also road trips!!
LOL.
I know it's very normal for some of you.
But for me, road trips are very rare to me.
So sad kan?
Wanted to ajak friends go movie today
But I'm too lazy to move and plus, friends are not available.
So just stayed home and rest.
I literally took my long nap from duno what time till 6pm
OMG
I'm such a pig, man.
Call me a pig please.
Yes, I do admit that.
I wish to go for road trips.
I'm serious about that actually.
I have been longing for one don't know from when till now 
And I haven't been to one which I really enjoyed
Road trips...can I minus the hot weather and add on more delicious food to the list?
But...but...
I haven't gain back my original voice
until now okay?FML man
It's been a week + and I've been such a good girl for taking all my medicines
and I'm not 100% recover...
HOW?
I want to go for road trips!!!
Desperately...
Boyfie is on his way.Got to go now..
Will come back to blog later if I still have something in mind...
Ciao... XOXO

2012

Happy New Year!It's the 2nd January now and it's the last day of my event job in HN for Maverick. Well, I would say there are good and bad times and I really learnt a lot during these period. And I do feel thankful that I did not accept the emcee job for the second spot. It has widen my life experiences in new things in life.

That's the good part and now is the bad part of it. Second day already felt disappointed with something. I thought it was as planned earlier and I really wish that I would receive it before the CNY. But looks like its another disappointment. Too bad then....

Thursday, December 29, 2011

2011 in review

Hello peeps!

I know it's been a very long time since the last update I made. Blame me for all that.  It's been quite hectic and tired with some issues around and I also lost my blogging mojo. I decided to blog back because the year 2011 is going to the end and I thought it would be greater if I blog something to end the year 2011.

Well, if you can read the new update right here, it means I'm not dead yet. I am still alive. Please be glad for it, at least I wasn't tortured to death by someone who annoyed me throughout the past semester. I am very glad that it's all over now and I guess I don't have to have any assignment related matters with her anymore. Let's just skip that.

As usual, 2011 isn't a happy-go-lucky year for me. I can't expect good things to happen on me all the time. And the best part is, I don't seem to remember all the events and happenings that happened throughout the year except for something which really really leave scars on me. Well, if you really know me well, I guess you already know what were the problems. Ups and downs, you name it and it's there for me ranging from friends, family and relationship matters. Work wise, nothing major to mention about because whenever the semester ended, all problems would buried together.

I would say 2011 is considered a so-called "glorious" year for me. Something surprising happened during the first quarter of the year and it lasted for several months. I felt guilty for it, I mean very very guilty and I just can't help it. Skip that. Went to clubs several times without telling John officially. Guilty again. I did told him about the recent visit and he was okay with it. Fuihhh..

Other than all that, during the last quarter of the year, I found myself to be involved in more event jobs and it's a pretty good kickstart for it. For the first time, I was asked to be the 'Registration Girl', you know all those leng lui leng lui wear sexy sexy to be the registration girl for events.Yeah, I was one of them with exception that payment is lower yet I have to assist them in wrapping presents. Seriously, the pay is damn low for all the work I did for them. Anyway, fine with that because I got nothing to do on that day and it was someone closed to me ask me to take the job. So I took it and did it. To be frank, I am not outstanding at all. It's just plain me and guess what's my outfit for the day. A Santarina uniform... FML I know some of you might be laughing at me.

And currently, I am emcee-ing for Harvey Norman's Awesome 8th Anniversary Sale. Obviously, not all the spots they have. Only 1 or 2 spots only. Why I put an 'or' there is because after the first spot I did for 2 days, I lost my voice and I had to find Joey to replace me for the day. And up to date right now, I am not fully recover yet and I am not sure if I can still continue emcee-ing for the next spot. Hopefully I can though. What a condition to end my 2011 in a pathetic way.

For the mean time now, my New Year resolution is getting back my voice!!hahahahhaa... I need you back desperately and I promised I will take good care of you...


This is me if you have forgotten how I look. I can still smile because it was taken before I lost my voice. Explains it all isn't it? I know I'm chubby..trying to reduce down now.. :(

Last but not least, Happy New Year everyone!!and Tong chiang tong chiang is coming too!!weeeeee~ ~ ~